That dream

I was comfortable in a setting and then we moved to a larger social group setting and I was less comfortable than a larger yet group and I was even more uncomfortable. Grasping for comfort. While they were ready for and excited to be dancing, i thought, I was aware that I was going to fall apart, over time here. So then I look at myself over time and realize the pain because I was less than what I thought I was.... Way less maybe.